Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Our Journey... Part 8, A Rainbow.



I read something recently that feels perfect to start with...




This has been such an amazing and exhausting journey at the same time.
We have had to learn so much about ourselves and our marriage.  
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.  
Let me say I believe this to be wholeheartedly true.  
I feel like I have grown so much as a person and wife in the last year.  

In the world of infertility you will often hear about Rainbow Babies.
For those of you that don't know what that means, these are babies that are born following a miscarriage or stillbirth.  The quote above says it best...
No rainbow can take away the pain from the storm, but it can give you 
something beautiful in the midst of the darkness.  

This last year has been such an incredible storm full of thunder, lightning, and steady rain.  
From our miscarriage in January 2016, finding Creighton Model and NaPro Technology in March, our diagnosis in May, what would have been the birth day of our baby in September, my surgery in October, personal healing and big life decisions in November, Job changes for my husband in December....  We made it through... Like I said in my previous post, stronger than ever.  We were ready for what was next... for what was to come... Our Rainbow!
That's right... We're Expecting our Rainbow Baby in September 2017!!!



This last month has been a whirlwind!  We found out we were expecting on my birthday!
That is the most amazing birthday gift I ever could have been given!  NaPro Technology has given us the strength and hope that is able to overcome most of the fears lingering from last year.  Anyone having a previous loss will tell you that the fear NEVER goes away.  Every single symptom, every single lack of symptom, every . single . day . there is fear.  I feel so blessed to know that we are doing EVERYTHING possible to help my body grow this amazing and beautiful little human being.  We were able to go to Omaha the day before Valentine's Day for our first ultrasound.  This was the absolute most amazing thing I have ever heard... a strong heartbeat!  Next was to see our baby, 2nd most amazing thing in the world!  Perfect baby, moving around, and even sat perfectly still for the heartbeat to be read.  I knew the risks of miscarriage went down once these things could be checked off the list.  But I also know that we still have a long ways to go!   We were so excited to tell our parents and families!  They got a very exciting Valentine's surprise this year!

We decided that you are all a part of this journey with us and wanted to let you all know!  
I want to give hope to those going through loss that there is a light meant for you.  
Don't give up.

And don't worry, this is far from the end of our Journey... 
We are just getting started!